Oyster girl

Wed, 13 Aug 2008 05:46:57 GMT

As cliche as it sounds (verbosity aside) I really, really don't think formal education is for me.

Fri, 09 May 2008 08:29:33 GMT

Sat, 16 Feb 2008 20:51:00 GMT

I feel like shoving my head and libido in a garbage compactor.

Sun, 10 Feb 2008 07:40:02 GMT

This won't end well.

Really need to cool it

Sat, 26 Jan 2008 05:46:59 GMT

Anyway I've got to buy a new(er) van. Which means when all is said and done I'll only have about 20,000 left in my account for the rest of college
So I guess I'll be getting a job as soon as I'm up to it.

I haven't been able to think of any new shirt designs. Tomorrow I get to go to Goodwill though. If I don't get inspired at least I'll get to up my hipster cred with an old man jacket like the one my history prof has
I really want a blue one

My hair looks so stupid. I look like the mom from the Incredibles now. I'm never going to try and save money by getting a cheap haircut ever again. Not even my homebrewing could save it

I hate missing class. I may not be the best student (Why did you choose to sit with me? I'm already distracted...), but I hate missing so much shit.

Those essays. Man, I'm too hopeful, it'll probably be a waste of time anyway. And the housing app was probably a waste of $50.

This will probably be my last entry for a while

Which probably means I should write them while I can.

http://www.youtube.com/v/eJHPKRw8MBw&rel=1

That is SO how I feel about Facebook. Complete with asian people I don't know doing stuff I don't care about, haha

Tue, 22 Jan 2008 04:42:23 GMT

coachella

Coachella.

COACHELLA.

do. want.

2008

Sun, 13 Jan 2008 00:58:46 GMT

Has been bittersweet so far. I've had a few firsts. Enjoyed the being with everyone this break. I'm grateful, in all.

I miss my friends. But it's alright. I'll adjust like I did last semester.

I hope I get to move out this year. And finally I'll have my own mode of transport soon enough.

Today maybe I should finish applying, first. I promised myself I'd get at least one shirt design printed, so maybe I'll do that tomorrow.

I guess I just feel sad though. I feel like giving up, but hopefully that feeling will pass. Maybe it's because I feel like I can't really say anything, and even if I do, none of my feelings are justified, and they're just superficial. Maybe not, maybe that's just how I feel others perceive them.

I feel like I'll never get better. I feel like I can't grow. I don't want to feel this way. I don't want to feel sick when I think about it. I don't want to be jealous. I don't want to be angry, or desperate.

Hey Laura, I'm sorry I didn't make your CDs like I said I would, among other things.

Liz, I'm sorry for not keeping up with my promises. I'm just distracted alot of the time, it's just how I am. I'll make it up to you. I'll try answering the phone more often.

Chiles girl

Mon, 24 Dec 2007 03:51:42 GMT

Wow. There is a girl who works at Chiles who I have a huge crush on.
I know she wouldn't acknowledge me if I tried because she's far too cool-looking, but oh well. :(
Don't you hate wondering what it would be like if you talked to those you admire from afar instead of actually doing so?

I'm off to play HALO now.

Sun, 23 Dec 2007 12:03:10 GMT

I hate that I'm weak and have to be under the infulence of something to acknowledge and accept how pathetic it am, and what I'm feeling, and to share it with others.

Sometimes I feel like Dario is the only one who understands me fully, and I him.

i'm so afradi that no matter where I go, nothing will change about how out of step I feel with the world

That i wont stop playing mind games for lack of anythign to do

and tha t I will continue having this shitty superiority complex, despite how ugly and unlikable and unintelligent i am.

I'm so sorry that I can't be happy for others

I'm sorry that I fucked up by slacking and that i ended up nowhere

I cant stand being so inexperienced, i feel like no matter what I do, I can't grow up like everyone else because of it

Dario told me that when he was finally out of here and in a relationship, he had a terrible time communicating anf figuring things out because of his lack of adolecent experience

I dont want to be that way

I wasnt meant to be here

I typo'd because I'm lazy.

Live at the Phoenix

Thu, 20 Dec 2007 08:32:36 GMT

Climbed up on a rainbow
Just to see if I'd fall off
I’m a frosted-lemon coward
And I don't know how
No, don't know to hold you without shaking
No, I'm not aware of how I could possibly love you
Without aching

I give you anything
I give you everything
I gave you everything
Now I've gotta watch myself
And love myself
And take care

And so keep the light on before you
Hop into bed
Baby this is the last honest love that I'll ever give
Baby this is the last honest look that I'll ever give

I saved up all my sunshine just to see you more clear
I'm a little short on solar, but I haven't given in
I'd hold you anyway
And I'll do it
Without shaking
I will love you always
And I'll do it
Without aching

I'd give you anything
I'd give you anything
I gave you everything
Now I've gotta watch myself
And love myself
And take care

And so keep the light on before you
Hop into bed

Baby this is the last honest look that I'll ever give
Baby this is the last honest love that I'll ever give

Dear Tila,

Wed, 19 Dec 2007 04:36:14 GMT

EPIC FAIL.

It's not too late for a birthday post

Tue, 18 Dec 2007 05:53:49 GMT

HAPPY BIRTHDAY! to my favorite Mexican-Canadian jailbait androgyne, Liz.

Bonus: Birthday embarrassment for all of my 5 (on a good day) LJ readers to see. (this didn't happen today..)

d'aww

pizza tiem

PS. The shoes go on your feet

I feel like utter shit. Like someone has stomped on my face. Ugh.

I'd be a part-time lover and a full-time friend.

Mon, 17 Dec 2007 08:19:25 GMT

No... NO.
Too late. I'm sick.

Whatever, whatever, whatever.

Sat, 15 Dec 2007 09:17:01 GMT

Why did they have to ruin Jumper? I can already tell they ruined it. That shitty looking 'war between jumpers and the government' plot looks exceedingly lame. Davy isn't supposed to be that old either.
That's just the previews.

Speaking of complete plot overhauls, I enjoyed I Am Legend, but the 'vampires' looked so stupid it was impossible to not laugh.

It was like a mixture of 28 Days Later + Children of Men... except not as good.

So, when am I going to get a break from all the bullshit?

I've thought about transitioning to polyphasic sleep. I rarely go to bed before 4:00 am anyway. But I have little willpower. We'll see.

Also, I've decided I don't believe in/condone the institution of marriage.

I'd better lose my virginity before 20, because that's halfway to 40.

Thu, 13 Dec 2007 21:45:45 GMT

Here come Dick, he's wearing a skirt
Here comes Jane, y'know she's sporting a chain
Same hair, revolution
Same build, evolution
Tomorrow who's gonna fuss?

And they love each other so
Androgynous
Closer than you know, love each other so
Androgynous

Don't get him wrong and don't get him mad
He might be a father, but he sure ain't a dad
She don't need advice that'll center her
She's happy with the way she looks
She's happy with her gender

And they love each other so
Androgynous
Closer than you know, love each other so
Androgynous

Mirror image, see no damage
See no evil at all
Kewpie dolls and urine stalls
Will be laughed at
The way you're laughed at now

Now, something meets Boy
And something meets Girl
They both look the same
They're overjoyed in this world
Same hair, revolution
Unisex, evolution
Tomorrow who's gonna fuss?
And tomorrow Dick is wearing pants
And tomorrow Janie's wearing a dress
Future outcasts and they don't last
And today, the people dress the way that they please
The way they tried to do in the last centuries

And they love each other so
Androgynous
Closer than you know, love each other so
Androgynous

You just keep on trying 'til you run out of cake

Mon, 10 Dec 2007 09:54:06 GMT

I'm not even angry.
I'm being so sincere right now.
Even though you broke my heart.
And killed me.
And tore me to pieces.
And threw every piece into a fire.
As they burned it hurt because I was so happy for you!
Now these points of data make a beautiful line.
And we're out of beta.
We're releasing on time.
So I'm glad I got burned.
Think of all the things we learned
for the people who are still alive.
Go ahead and leave me.
I think I prefer to stay inside.
Maybe you'll find someone else to help you.
Maybe Black Mesa
That was a joke.
Haha, fat chance.
Anyway, this cake is great.
It's so delicious and moist.
Look at me still talking
when there's Science to do.
When I look out there, it makes me glad I'm not you.
I've experiments to run.
There is research to be done.
On the people who are still alive.
And believe me I am still alive.
I'm doing Science and I'm still alive.
I feel FANTASTIC and I'm still alive.
While you're dying I'll be still alive.
And when you're dead I will be still alive.

STILL ALIVE!

Just enjoying

Sat, 08 Dec 2007 02:49:21 GMT

Jump to :35 to view my futuire wife! <3

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I'm gonna go see the Goldn Compass. I dont know what it's about but I'm sure it'll be entertaining

Fri, 07 Dec 2007 07:39:04 GMT

So literal. So true.

Thu, 29 Nov 2007 09:00:17 GMT

Less then two weeks away from finals... and I find another streaming video site.
The internet is such an asshole.

I blew alot of money at Urban Outfitters, and then I blew some more money on shirt-printing supplies.

God I am so fucking indie and cool.

Dear my favorite little Canadian,
Will you take me to get my hair cut once and for all? You owe me after that trainwreck the other day.

Tue, 27 Nov 2007 06:29:07 GMT

Life has decided to bestow me with more mental anguish and torture for me to enjoy.

I'm still trying to figure out what it is that makes me so unlikable.

Wow, haha, today was awful.

Also, I dislike everyone these days.

That can't be good.

I'm going to try to get a screen and some emulsion this weekend.

Of course, I'm too fucking lazy/stupid to ever be able to successfully do what I want with it.

Also, I'm going to go to UO at the mall, but I'll still going to look fucking fat and ugg in anything I wear.

Seriously what's the point.

I don't even know! Why am I posting this?

Because fuck advice from attractive happy people, seriously.

Oh oh oh I just need a second...

Mon, 19 Nov 2007 07:35:43 GMT

life

extreme frustration
boredom
stress
boredom
hate
annoyance
boredom

page stretch
etc.

This is the saddest thing I've ever seen on the internet.

Sun, 18 Nov 2007 07:46:48 GMT

http://i11.tinypic.com/733gsiu.jpg

Sun, 18 Nov 2007 00:15:48 GMT

My hair's red and blonde now.

When I put on my shades I look like a wannabe, but I'm really not, I swear.

Still bitter over it

Fri, 16 Nov 2007 23:07:09 GMT

http://youtube.com/watch?v=7A_Y5-6bRTk

The played Living Room and Divided too.

WRYYYYYYY

On a positive note I get to get a hole in my face in a few hours.

Edit:

+10 Respect Points for Sara
It is so fucking embarassing PX

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mtItgUu6x2Y&feature=related

I did watch a little of that marathon though XD

Thu, 15 Nov 2007 03:43:06 GMT

You, you found yourself a sweetie
You won't leave their side tonight
And if tomorrow actually happens...
Then you just might reconsider
On how to go awry

I am not sure where I belong still
I was never a normal ~~boy~~
I don't go out unless its demanded of me
I already know what is outside
But what I don't know is
What is inside of me