As cliche as it sounds (verbosity aside) I really, really don't think formal education is for me.

I feel like shoving my head and libido in a garbage compactor. 

This won't end well.

Anyway I've got to buy a new(er) van. Which means when all is said and done I'll only have about 20,000 left in my account for the rest of college
So I guess I'll be getting a job as soon as I'm up to it.

I haven't been able to think of any new shirt designs. Tomorrow I get to go to Goodwill though. If I don't get inspired at least I'll get to up my hipster cred with an old man jacket like the one my history prof has
I really want a blue one

My hair looks so stupid. I look like the mom from the Incredibles now. I'm never going to try and save money by getting a cheap haircut ever again. Not even my homebrewing could save it

I hate missing class. I may not be the best student (Why did you choose to sit with me? I'm already distracted...), but I hate missing so much shit.

Those essays. Man, I'm too hopeful, it'll probably be a waste of time anyway. And the housing app was probably a waste of $50.

This will probably be my last entry for a while

Which probably means I should write them while I can.

http://www.youtube.com/v/eJHPKRw8MBw&rel=1


That is SO how I feel about Facebook. Complete with asian people I don't know doing stuff I don't care about, haha

coachella

Coachella.

COACHELLA.

do. want.

Has been bittersweet so far. I've had a few firsts. Enjoyed the being with everyone this break. I'm grateful, in all.

I miss my friends. But it's alright. I'll adjust like I did last semester.

I hope I get to move out this year. And finally I'll have my own mode of transport soon enough.

Today maybe I should finish applying, first. I promised myself I'd get at least one shirt design printed, so maybe I'll do that tomorrow.

I guess I just feel sad though. I feel like giving up, but hopefully that feeling will pass. Maybe it's because I feel like I can't really say anything, and even if I do, none of my feelings are justified, and they're just superficial. Maybe not, maybe that's just how I feel others perceive them.

I feel like I'll never get better. I feel like I can't grow. I don't want to feel this way. I don't want to feel sick when I think about it. I don't want to be jealous. I don't want to be angry, or desperate.

Hey Laura, I'm sorry I didn't make your CDs like I said I would, among other things.

Liz, I'm sorry for not keeping up with my promises. I'm just distracted alot of the time, it's just how I am. I'll make it up to you. I'll try answering the phone more often.

Wow. There is a girl who works at Chiles who I have a huge crush on.
I know she wouldn't acknowledge me if I tried because she's far too cool-looking, but oh well. :(
Don't you hate wondering what it would be like if you talked to those you admire from afar instead of actually doing so?

I'm off to play HALO now.

I hate that I'm weak and have to be under the infulence of something to acknowledge and accept how pathetic it am, and what I'm feeling, and to share it with others.

Sometimes I feel like Dario is the only one who understands me fully, and I  him.

i'm so afradi that no matter where I go, nothing will change about how out of step I feel with the world

That i wont stop playing mind games for lack of anythign to do

and tha t I will continue having this shitty superiority complex, despite how ugly and unlikable and unintelligent i am.

I'm so sorry that I can't be happy for others

I'm sorry that I fucked up by slacking and that i ended up nowhere

I cant stand being so inexperienced, i feel like no matter what I do, I can't grow up like everyone else because of it

Dario told me that when he was finally out of here and in a relationship, he had a terrible time communicating anf figuring things out because of his lack of adolecent experience

I dont want to be that way

I wasnt meant to be here

I typo'd because I'm lazy.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY! to my favorite Mexican-Canadian jailbait androgyne, Liz.

Bonus: Birthday embarrassment for all of my 5 (on a good day) LJ readers to see. (this didn't happen today..)


PS. The shoes go on your feet

I feel like utter shit. Like someone has stomped on my face. Ugh.
 

No... NO.
Too late. I'm sick.

Whatever, whatever, whatever.

Why did they have to ruin Jumper? I can already tell they ruined it. That shitty looking 'war between jumpers and the government' plot looks exceedingly lame. Davy isn't supposed to be that old either.
That's just the previews.

Speaking of complete plot overhauls, I enjoyed I Am Legend, but the 'vampires' looked so stupid it was impossible to not laugh.

It was like a mixture of 28 Days Later + Children of Men... except not as good.

So, when am I going to get a break from all the bullshit?

I've thought about transitioning to polyphasic sleep. I rarely go to bed before 4:00 am anyway. But I have little willpower. We'll see.

Also, I've decided I don't believe in/condone the institution of marriage.

I'd better lose my virginity before 20, because that's halfway to 40.

I'm not even angry.
I'm being so sincere right now.
Even though you broke my heart.
And killed me.
And tore me to pieces.
And threw every piece into a fire.
As they burned it hurt because I was so happy for you!
Now these points of data make a beautiful line.
And we're out of beta.
We're releasing on time.
So I'm glad I got burned.
Think of all the things we learned
for the people who are still alive.
Go ahead and leave me.
I think I prefer to stay inside.
Maybe you'll find someone else to help you.
Maybe Black Mesa
That was a joke.
Haha, fat chance.
Anyway, this cake is great.
It's so delicious and moist.
Look at me still talking
when there's Science to do.
When I look out there, it makes me glad I'm not you.
I've experiments to run.
There is research to be done.
On the people who are still alive.
And believe me I am still alive.
I'm doing Science and I'm still alive.
I feel FANTASTIC and I'm still alive.
While you're dying I'll be still alive.
And when you're dead I will be still alive.

STILL ALIVE!

Jump to :35 to view my futuire wife! <3

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I'm gonna go see the Goldn Compass. I dont know what it's about but I'm sure it'll be entertaining

So literal. So true.

Less then two weeks away from finals... and I find another streaming video site.
The internet is such an asshole.

I blew alot of money at Urban Outfitters, and then I blew some more money on shirt-printing supplies.

God I am so fucking indie and cool.

Dear my favorite little Canadian,
Will you take me to get my hair cut once and for all? You owe me after that trainwreck the other day.